The Entire 8 Chapter Of Out Of Darkness - The Forgetful Sea Of Moans
The years of hospitals and doctors are just a dream now. The drinking is now gone, a new life has begun. It just doesn’t seem possible to really be free. Bad days now don’t even compare to those of a long time ago when I had no soul because I was polluted with over-prescribed prescriptions.
(640 PILLS A MONTH. SOMETIMES NUMBERS CAN BE DECEIVING, AS THE STRENGTH HAS A LOT TO DO WITH IT.)
My mind was numb yet the pain so real, I believe I went to the Dark Side and lived there for years. I had an uncontrollable fear of every single day and yes nighttime was worse than the day would be; it hurt to breathe
(MY LUNGS WERE ENCASED IN CEMENT WITH NO ROOM TO EXPAND—VERY PAINFUL!)
or even to think, as it seemed as though my brain was enclosed in some type of no-give substance. The only way out, I’m sure you can see, was to end it all quickly before another endless day of negative thinking, a day with no meaning, a day in the pit where I heard only the moans of the others who were there before me, sucking out our life, making it hard to breathe. I was fading fast into that forgetful sea!
The sea shows no mercy, not even a clue. All you experience is suffering from moment to moment until the mind finally breaks. Then come the voices that scream and yell, never letting you rest, always saying, “There are your friends!”
Your real friends start to leave you because your behavior has become obscene. They lost a good friend to mental illness. Little did they know the hurting you went through, the fighting of voices and all that goes with the territory, the demons that are now gone.
They could not see the same thing that you saw and all the while you could see the last part of you that was free sliding closer to that grave. You were all alone no matter how much support they all gave; it seemed they all were on the wicked side now, which had stolen my life and all my dreams and left me with nothing. Yet through it all something inside me refused to give in!
So you see, that forgetful sea, the one now gone, will have to move to the next lost and tortured soul because I chose life, that all may see the happiness and joy that’s burning inside of me, that ever-glowing flame that will just not be put out!
Please know that the forgetful sea of moans can be overcome! I have not been to the physic ward in five years and the sea has no choice to spite me out of it’s grasp and I will never step foot in it again and you can do the same! Remember that the sea of moans cannot control you when you see the light of day, it will run and hide, it will be scared away by your will to survive and see that your life is moving past the wretched place that sucks all the life out of those who get stuck there.
Not you though you have seen the light and now you are going to walk toward it and in the minute you decide this you will be relaxed from the forgetful sea of moans and you will never return to the place were many of souls were lost.
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